I think I'm going to buy the James Blunt CD so I can listen to it in attempts to soothe myself but in contradiction, it will probably evoke emotions that cause me to cry myself to bed tonight. Fantastic.

"Goodbye My Lover"

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Wow, I just logged onto Xanga for the first time this year. I haven't been on since last semester ended. And haha, I'm about to be interupted because I'm leaving for My Big Fat Greek Restaurant in a few minutes. That sucks. The one time I feel like I should sit down and pour my thoughts out.. I have to go. I'll be back.

End of pointless blog.

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I am pulling my first real all nighter in college at ASU, can you believe it?! And the funny thing is.. I didn't really have to. The only reason I'm doing this is because I procrastinated until the very last minute. I pretty much had all day today to do everything I needed to but instead, I speant time beautifying our dorm hallway for the holidays. I even went out for a few hours with a few girlfriends for free wings, free vegetables, and free bowling. Come on, who can pass that up?

I'm pretty sure I'm getting that wierd high where you've been up for much to long and the caffiene you drank is starting to make you shake. When I look in the mirror, I can definately see the bags forming underneath my eyes. But it's past 5 in the morning and I haven't really gotten that far with my studies/hw. All I've really done other than dick around on myspace/livejournal/facebook is write a 2 page essay and a paragraph for my success class and fill out a long ass study guide for a test I'm taking 5 hours from now. Wow, now that I think about it.. that's quite a bit of time. Oh wait, I still have to read over the thing and actually absorb the information. I also have another test at 4:40 in the afternoon but it's going to be easy as pie because the teacher always gives tests with the same exact questions and answers from the study guide. The only thing I'm worried about is reading some 15-20 page article and writing a summary and my opinion on it for a lousy 5 points extra credit. Then again it isn't so lousy because it might make the difference between me getting an A or a B in the class. I probably shouldn't sleep during the break I have during the day anyway just because I need to make sure I wake up to take that test.

Obviously you can tell something is wrong because here I am rambling to a fucking online journal at 5:30 in the AM when I have much more important things to do. But now that I've made the decision to pull an all nighter, I have a lot more time on my hands. Writing in here is actually waking me up and making me feel more "work mode"-ish if you get what I'm trying to say. Or maybe my caffeinated high will come to a very bad low in the next half hour or so and I'll pass out at the desk. No, I don't pass out at desks. Besides, my bed is less than two feet away.

When you pull all nighters, you are constantly hungry and having to pee. Has anyone else noticed that? Tomorrow night's sleep is going to be amazing. I'm looking very forward to it.

It's also kind of hard to start studying when the rest of your hall doesn't even go to bed until 1 or 2 in the morning. If there's someone to talk to, I'm more likely to talk to them rather than sit down and actually get things done.

At least I'm not as bad as Adam, who came into my room all high (real high) telling me that he's waking up at 8am to work on the study guide and I'm more than welcome to join.

Good morning.